On feeling defeated.

Leif does not sleep. He is what they call a "sleep fighter". Or a "high needs baby". And I feel like I just can't help him to sleep. I've even considered cry-it-out (during one brief sleep deprived moment) and resorted to reading a book that mentioned "...sometimes babies will cry so hard they vomit. You must persevere."

He is only 8.5 weeks old. Some people say just do what you can to survive till month four, then intervene. Others tell me to "Start now, or you'll pay later!" Pay later? With what? Waking up every half hour at night rather than every hour?

The nights times have been going pretty much the same since week 5 - nurse to sleep between 9 and 10, awake around 12:30, again at 2:00, then 3:00, 4:00 for a potty break, fitful sleep for another hour, walk him at 5:00, back to sleep by 6:00 then a nap till around 8ish. *sigh*

Daytimes are harder. Not joking! We can get him to nap in the cat bed if we orchestrate everything perfectly. Otherwise he misses his window and is cranky screaming for at least an hour or two. Or longer. Our options are walking him in the sling, or placing him drowsy into the swing for some mechanical mother time. I worry that this will only get worse and I'll be walking around a 1 year old in the sling to get him to sleep! I'm creating a motion junky...

I'm sure it will get better, I'm just haunted by the thoughts that I could be doing something NOW to make it better in a few weeks. I just don't know what to do! Short of going on a strict schedule or cry-it-out I suppose we'll just keep on proceeding.